Jon Walks in the Light: A Mother’s Awakening through Birth and Death By Helena Montelius ISBN 0-9779253-0-7 $15.00

On May 3, 2001, Jon Montelius died from an accidental overdose, shortly after his twenty-first birthday. In this deeply personal and spiritual book, his mother shares the story of a remarkable young man and her journey into the dark hole that is all parents’ worst fear.

She shares how grief transformed into bliss, longing into fulfillment, painful stories into truth, helplessness into surrender, and how her heart was stretched into vastness, into love beyond form. Through meditation, by fully allowing the deep inner process to unfold and simply witnessing moment-by-moment, she was awakened to her true nature.

Jon’s death occurred a year after his little sister Leah was born, merging the teachings of spirit taking and leaving form in a profound way. This is not a book about how to “get over” your loss or crisis, it is about allowing a deeper opening and surrender. The meditation practices in every chapter guide the way to transform any crisis into a true spiritual awakening.

“As parents and spiritual teachers we are inspired by Helena’s clarity and courage. She teaches the path of inner alchemy.”
~Stephen & Ondrea Levine

“Jon Walks in the Light is a remarkable book in which a mother expresses the grief of losing her dear son from a very awakened perspective. The way she transformed grief into bliss, missing into fulfillment, helplessness into surrender and the whole experience into truth of life is a great healing to many among us. I am sure many people will enjoy this book.”
~Venerable Geshe Pelghye
Buddhist Lama and Member of Tibetan Parliament in Exile

Fire of Love: Living Freedom, Truth and Love as Man and Woman By Christoffer and Helena Montelius ISBN 0-9779253-1-5 $15.00

In Fire of Love an awakened Swedish couple share their journey into love beyond form and into creating a passionate relationship that is not based on the limited personality, but on the expanded nature of our deepest essence.
Fire of Love brings the pure, awakened love and divine devotion of the mystics and spiritual renunciates into the meeting of man and woman. The profound practices will help you shift into the vastness of your own true nature. The three parts, Being in Heaven, Going to Hell and Landing on Earth, of Fire of Love will:

• Teach you how to find the source of love within and become the love you are seeking.
• Transform your relationship into a divine love affair where you both live your passionate longing and share your deepest gifts.
• Open the way for the original, pure feminine and masculine essences to saturate your lovemaking.
• Activate the divine purpose of your relationship.
• Bring the clarity and fulfillment of your true nature into addictive sexual patterns and co-dependency, allowing them to dissolve.
• Teach you how to transform a broken heart during times of death, divorce or betrayal.
• Guide the way for an awakened every day life with children and true commitment to emerge from within.

In Sweden Fire of Love is available at Vattumannens bokhandel and Stjärndistribution:  www.sdist.se

Temple of Divine Feminine Flow: Guidelines & Feminine Spiritual Practices for Women’s Groups. (A work-in-progress edition.) By Helena Montelius & Chameli Gad Ardagh $25 ($15 for digital copy)

Welcome into a mystical, radical spiritual practice for women that embraces and opens the depth of our feminine nature. In the Temple everything is welcomed and embraced as an opening into the divine; our deepest emotions, our sensual, sensitive bodies, our irrational chaos, our longing for beauty and our devotional hearts. In the Temple we meet and merge as women in place beyond our minds and limited personalities. We become one divine feminine body.
This manual covers everything you need to know to start a deep, juicy and truly intimate sister hood, it includes 20 sample evenings from beginners evenings to more advanced. Everything in this manual has been lived and practiced for real in the Temple group Chameli and Helena founded 2005 in Nevada City, California.

All Meditation CDs are created by Helena Montelius and recorded with her voice by Peter Lindahl in his studio. All music and sound mixing is by Peter Lindahl at www.inthelabyrinth.com

CD 1 Connecting With Your True Nature ISBN 0-9779253-2-3 $15.00

Track 1: Witnessing the Breath (30 min. With flutes.)
Listen to 5 minute MP3 file clip.

Track 2: What Is Aware? (30 min. With flutes.)

Learn the simplest yet most profound and efficient way to meditate and enter the present moment. Once you have learned it, witnessing the breath is a tool you can bring with you in any stressful situation. Witnessing the breath is also a gateway to experiencing oneness with all living beings and connecting with the larger force of life that is breathing through you. Do you think you are the one doing the breathing?
Track 2 guides you through the surface layers of any experience you have into a direct experience of your true nature, your inner diamond of perfection; the awareness that is witnessing everything that arises and is also the very medium that holds it all.
This CD is both for beginners and for experienced meditators who wish to deepen their practice.

CD 2 Entering Deeper Into the Essence of Love ISBN 0-9779253-3-1 $15.00

Track 1: Entering the Heart Center (30 min. With flutes.)

Track 2: Finding the Source of Love Within (30 min. With flutes.)

Receive gentle guidance to feel into your heart center, embrace whatever is present, and breathe through all contracted and closed places in your heart, allowing your heart center to expand into love beyond form and into true compassion.
Track 2 guides you through the letting-go-of-form practice, in which you find the source of love within and allow yourself to open to the immortal essence of love. This CD will help you immensely if you are sitting with a broken heart during loss, divorce, or betrayal, and it can also be used for anyone longing for a more open heart and a real experience of love within. For beginners, it is good to start with CD 1 as an introduction.

CD 3 Allowing the Healing Process of Grief ISBN 0-9779253-4-X $15.00

Track 1: Expanding through Grief (40 min. With flutes.)

Track 2: Healing Journey (20 min. With flowing brook.)

Instead of seeing grief as something you have to endure or “get over” when you lose a loved one, these meditations help you to see grief as a gift—a gift that, when fully allowed and embraced, helps you to dive into the deepest part of your true nature and expand your heart center into love beyond form. The meditations assist you in softening and opening to the grief, allowing it to flow and cleanse all the layers around your heart center, so that you can awaken to the present moment and fully enter into life with gratitude and innocence.
Track 2 offers a meditation in which you give yourself healing and soothing green energy for nourishment and grounding during your crisis. You are probably more sensitive and raw than you have ever been in your life. You need be gentle with yourself and take good care of yourself.
It doesn’t matter if your grief is new or has been buried for many years, or what you are grieving. It is never too late to grieve what needs to be grieved and allow healing and expansion to take place.

CD 4 Allowing Surrender ISBN 0-9779253-5-8 $15.00

Track 1: Transforming Helplessness into Surrender (30 min. With chanting.)  Listen to 15 minute MP3 clip.

Track 2: Facing the Guilt Ghost (30 min. With flutes.)

Our deepest initiations and transformations in life often come in a time of crisis when something beyond our control changes our life forever and we feel utterly helpless. In this meditation, you will learn to make friends with the uncomfortable emotion of helplessness and gently explore it deeper and allowing it to transform into surrender. Surrender is a beautiful state of grace in which we are one with our true self, and our helplessness is a gateway into that.
Track 2 gently bring your guilt ghost into the light and guides you in being with and breathing through the guilt. Faced with your loving awareness, guilt vanishes like mist when the sun rises, because it is a synthetic feeling produced by stories in the mind. When the layers of guilt are investigated and looked through, you can begin the real healing of grieving what needs to be grieved and opening toward true forgiveness.

CD 5 Transforming Emptiness and Longing ISBN 0-9779253-6-6 $15.00

Track 1: Entering the Sacred Void (30 min. With chanting.)

Track 2: Breathing with the Fire of Longing (30 min. With flutes.)

Feeling of loneliness, separation and emptiness, are often intensely present when we experience a loss of some kind. In this meditation, we learn to see the empty space as sacred, enter into it with reverence, and embrace the emptiness and loneliness with compassion and tenderness. As you practice breathing with all the uncomfortable feelings, you find within all the essence qualities that you miss and fill yourself with golden presence and oneness.
Track 2 offers the opportunity to fully feel and go into your longing, whether you are longing for someone who died, your perfect partner, or perhaps a child, and transform the longing into fulfillment. In letting go of the form you are longing for, you can melt into the fire of longing, become one with it and find the peaceful center in the core of the fire.

2 Book Package, Jon Walks in the Light & Fire of Love: $25

Upplev din sanna natur ISBN 978-0-9779253-8-4 $15

1. Bevittna andningens flöde 30 min.
2. Vägledning till din sanna natur 30 min.

Lär dig en av de enklaste och kraftfullaste vägarna in i meditation som skapades av Buddha. Att bevittna andningens flöde är ett verktyg du kan använda för avslappning och centrering i vardagen.
Andningen sker alltid i nuet, i kroppen, i din bröstkorg som är hjärtcentrets boning, den kallar ner dig från tankarnas virrvarr till din klara kärna.
Spår 2 guidar dig ännu djupare, till en direkt upplevelse av det rena medvetande som är din sanna natur, till det som bevittnar och håller allting i kärlek: din inneboende Buddhanatur.

Träd djupare in i kärlekens essens ISBN 978-0-9779253-9-1    $15

1. Hela ditt hjärtcenter 30 min.
2. Finn kärlekens källa inom dig 30 min.

Ta emot kärleksfull vägledning in i ditt hjärtcenter, omfamna allt som är närvarande och andas igenom alla smärtsamma platser. Tillåt ditt hjärt-center att blomstra och bli en öppen kanal för den rena essensen av medkänsla, kärlek och hängivenhet.
Spår 2 vägleder dig genom “släppa-formen-tekniken” som lär dig utforska kärlekens källa inom dig och att bli ett med den kärlek du söker. Dessa meditationer är djupt helande om du är i sorg eller upplevt en förlust och för den som längtar efter att öppna sig för kärlekens kraft.

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